my childhood is dying...

ok, first it Dom Deluise. Had to watch Smokey & The Bandit series, which made me miss my dad - Burt Reynolds doppelganger in ways more than just image.

no, no, wait. FIRST was Bea Arthur. Loved her. She was so hilarious, strong and sarcastic as hell. My hero.

So then Ed McMahon, sad but not unexpected. Then I have Farah Fawcett's passing thrown on me at lunch. Again, expected, but still a little bit of a downer.

Now Michael Jackson's demise has completely rocked my world. Not even because I am upset about it, but because it's completely taken over my TV.

I am only as smart as my TiVo. She told me 30 Rock was on NBC. I turned there because I couldn't twitter my thoughts away, nor could I use DDO (which I so want to throw myself into) and was shocked to discover that not only were we being shown old & presumably thrown together footage of MJ, this was just the first hour of a 2 hour special. I presume this footage was thrown together because otherwise I have to confront the reality that the networks have 2 hour specials ready and waiting for celebrity to kick the bucket. A Farrah special I can see, she's been ill for quite some time and had her own special earlier. But MJ? Were we expecting him to die and I just missed the memo? I don't think so.

And what up with Dungeons and Dragons online? I signed up for their beta. How do I start?!? My brain is tired and I don't feel like trying to tackle w0w. I'm stuck there.

More... I know... LOST!

Ok. How sad is it as soon as my eyes popped (yes, island style) open this morning, I actually said "Juliet" out loud? Kinda pathetic right?

Who else not only knew that when Sawyer asked Jack, "So there's nothing I can say to stop you?" there was a punch coming, but swung at the same time? That was a great moment.

And Phil's not timely enough death.

Someone at work had the nerve to say, "It's just a TV show. Those people aren't real." I know, or think I know, that a girl named Juliet didn't get shuffled off to a remote island by Richard Alpert only to FINALLY fall in love with the sexiest, hottest, sweetest man in the world only to be drug into an electromagnetic shaft with a hydrogen bomb. I know that. duh. But I have 5 years of pondering the 100 hours of superb television that the writers, producers and most certainly not least, actors of Lost have given us. No, Kate Austen isn't a REAL person, but I know her. I've seen all of these people happy, sad, angry, addicted, bored, in love. I do KNOW them.

That being said, I am so friggin' glad that Hurley didn't get sucked into the quagmire that is/was known as the hatch. This season mirrored season 2 in so many different ways it would blow your mind - that is if the show itself hadn't already done so. Juliet's death, and Sawyer's heartbreak broke my heart. I was sobbing on my couch in the dark with a pillow blocking my face from my boyfriend AND muffling the sobs. Not just tears running down my face, sobs. But if Hurley would have died or gotten hurt, my soul would have been in agony. He has always been a good soul himself, always tries to do the very best he can, including cheering folks up when there isn't any real reason to do so.

I nearly walked away at Juliet. The only reason I didn't is because so far Lost has made even the most painful deaths not without some greater meaning. I tweeted that I hated Lost. I know! What was I thinking?! But I can assure you if it'd been Hugo Reyes in that shaft, I wouldn't be turning ABC on again for any reason.

I knew Locke wasn't the regular push around Locke. I wondered all season if he wasn't the smoke monster, because they shared no screen time. But then I'd think back to season 1 when Locke would catch a hog, teach Walt to throw a knife and play chess. He was like this then. The island had given him back his legs, as well as gifting him with a proper machismo he'd never had before.

---- it's late, i'll finish this tomorrow ----

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Lost? Really?

Ok. Just a quick post before I hit the sack and cry myself to sleep.

Tonight's Lost was awesome. I can't believe all the wonderful answers we were given, the people we saw, not to mention Vincent. How terrific! Sawyer kicking Jack's ass because he was sooo happy with Juliet before they came back... That's my James right there. Locke I saw coming, back when Alex warned Ben to do whatever Locke said to do. Anytime Smokey came around, or Alex, Locke was out of sight. Strange coincidence? Not on Lost. After all, dead is dead.

Chang's hand getting smooshed with metal confirming, at least up until this point, whatever happened, happened. Miles yelling "Dad!!" and helping him. Priceless.

I will think of more awesomely great points later - I was pretty overwhelmed by the awesomness the entire show. Right now I am exhausted, my head hurts, and my face feels funny. Why? I cried like a little baby. It's not enough for Sawyer to lose his parents so tragically and live a false life only to find happiness on this wonky little island with the last person you'd have thought he'd end up with, just to have her literally ripped from him? I was not a Juliet fan at the beginning of the season, I really thought she was still being duplicitous. But once we saw the 3 years later in Dharmaville, I was so thrilled with their chemistry that I began hoping Kate never comes back to the island. Yes - way back then. So, yea, my head hurts. I actually started to turn off the tv and go to bed that is how upset I was. I don't do that. At all, especially never with Lost. Nope. But I felt betrayed. Which only goes to prove I have to trust Darlton to make it right and worth the angst.

Juliet is a hero though. I only hope that Jack wasn't as crazy as he seemed, and this wasn't another mistake he made. I hope, I hope, I hope. Because if she died for nothing, I will forget Lost.

Before the show came on, I tweeted that I'd be happy as long as the major death wasn't Hurley. Or Sawyer or Juliet. Or Miles. Hurley would have just been wrong on so many levels. I had no idea at that time how moving the scene could be between Sawyer and Juliet.

She loves you James.

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Pics on Webshots...

Yes, I posted these on Webshots like a 100 years ago. Yes, I have too many sites to post too many things to. It makes my head hurt. Enjoy the pics. I know we had fun.

Caiti’s 13th Birthday & Halloween Party

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Save Chuck!!

If you tweet, tweet #SaveChuck #Chuck as often as you can, whether the message is related or not.
Get on Facebook, MySpace, whatever and remind people to let everyone know why they like Chuck Bartowski so much. There was suppose to be an announcement May 5th whether Chuck has been renewed or not. Sadly, Nora O'Brien died on a the set of Parenthood last Wednesday. Nora was instrumental in moving a lot of Sci-Fi programs forward. Out of respect, renewal talks have been halted until further notice. While my heart and prayers go out to the family, I have to ask you to help give Chuck a final push.

I've signed petitions, I've blasted my Twitter peeps (Sorry about that, I'll be less annoying later), bought my Subway footlongs while pressuring others that is really what they want to eat too.

Chuck is not only an outstanding show, but the character development is rich and entertaining. The show is informed, and family friendly while also letting all the up and coming geeks know it's okay to be smart. Taking Chuck off the air does more damage than freeing up an hour for Leno (who should take a gracious stage left already) - it tells all the lil' geeks out there to give up, geeks can't win no matter how often or how large a scale they save the world.

Remember Twitter - #SaveChuck #Chuck.
My Twitter account is grrlwonder, so hit me up there.

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